The fantastic adventures of Koach Baruch

Sim shalom tovah uv'rachah chen vachesed verachamim I've got peace like a river I've got peace like a river I've got peace like a river in my soul And it, flows like a river And it, flows like a river I've got peace like a river in my soul You know how you put questions out into the universe and then you see something, you hear something, or you meet someone and your answer comes?  And then there are times where you aren't asking for anything, aren't looking for anything and the clarity about a situation comes.  It seems to come out of the blue but you know that is not true.  It was meant to be, if only you listen. I had the pleasure of seeing an old friend this weekend.  We talked about a lot of things, but I got some clarity with him about my transition. I was telling him about the transformational experience at the Meramec river about 6 weeks ago.  I went to the river to do the mikveh ritual before starting hormones.  I wanted to go back to the wa

I work with people of all ages, but mostly those over the age of 50. I see people in all stages of life including the end of life and often times in distress.  Mostly in distress because they are having trouble hearing and I can usually help with that. Yesterday I saw one of our elders fast asleep in their chair when I went to the waiting room to get them. No biggie, that happens quite often. But, they had to be aroused awake just to walk back to see me. Then as we went through the appointment which had to be cut short, they went back to sleep to the point of arms hanging on the sides of the chair and head hanging.  They had to be shaken awakened at least 3 or 4 times.  The family says that this is the worse they have ever seen them and it was certainly the worst for me. I tried my best not to cry during the appointment, although I can't stop the tears now. It appears that this person is being over medicated.  I know this is not a new phenomenon, but it is new to me and my patie

Baruch atah adonai eloheinu melech ha'olam shecheyanu v'kiy'manu v'higyanu lazman hazeh . This is my first post as I begin blogging through the first steps in medical transition. I have been asked by some of my friends to do this and I think it is a good idea.  I'm not really sure how this will turn out, but I wanted to give it a try. ------------------------------------------------------------------- I write this post on the heels of a powerful action that was led by some young leaders of the queer and trans people of color STL (QTPOCSTL) group. We marched in the PRIDE parade carrying a casket and the precious names of the trans people of color that we have lost to violence this year.  Pride Inc. pushed us to the back of the parade and then upon seeing our sign that said Black Trans Lives Matter, the emcee said, "all lives matter, c'mon, what about diversity?"  We went back on the festival grounds after the parade ---- chanting and marchin